I apologize for my complete and total

lack of presence on this site and on the sites of the people who are my daily reads.  It's been 2 (3?) weeks since Bear died and I haven't really realized he's gone yet.  I just keep calling him or going to get him and then I'm flooded with memories, both good and traumatic.  Even now I'm sitting here crying for him.  I hate the way grief lets you go on thinking you're fine and then you are totally blindsided by the incomprehensible sense of loss. And yes, I know it's harder to lose a husband or a friend or a child or a parent, but it's still hard enough.

I plan on returning, I just need a priority hiatus.  Bear, storm damage, Gib's car being undrivable, me still not so patiently waiting on my raise and a raging sinus infection plus 2.5 hours of rehearsal every day of the week all adds up to a completely overwhelmed Jennifer who needs her psych meds adjusted.

Once adjusted back to a somewhat even keel, I'll be back.  Right now it's just one responsibility too many.

Comments

[the planet of janet]

the beauty of a reader is that it lets me know when you have posted. i have missed you but you need to take the time for you.

hugs.

like always...

[LKP]

No apologies needed. At all. Hugs.

[Tiger Lamb Girl]

What janet said;)...readers are aweome.

Take all the time you need.

xo

p.s. Rover had to be put down on Monday....very sad and quiet in my house. I guess I'm just saying I sympathise. I can't even blog about it, until after the kids find out (next week once they've finished their exams at school). Hope you feel better soon.

[kim-d]

Hey, if you forgive me for being a bad blogger friend, I'll forgive you. Let's do a blanket forgiveness pact, shall we? That way, we don't have to keep apologizing when shitty, crappy real life gets in the way of blogging :).

Jenn, I totally understand and sympathize with your feelings after the loss of Bear. Just three months after Bill died, our cat, who was so much good company for me and the only one (along with our other cat) who seemed to understand me at that time, died. One day he was here and "fine" and then the next day he wasn't. I honestly thought I was going to lose it. The grief was unbearable, for quite some time. You can't compare it to losing a human loved one; it's like comparing apples to oranges. Losing a canine or feline loved one is a whole other kind of loss and grief experience, but definitely no less. No less. And I am so sorry you don't have your Bear there with you.

Take whatever time you need.

[Daniel]

Hey, I'm bored. Come back to work. But don't think I'm missing you or anything.

[ashpags]

I was just thinking "Hm, I haven't heard much from Jenn lately, I wonder how she's doing." ... I'm sorry to hear that you're still feeling bummed. =( I hope that things start to look up soon. We miss you!

[Jenni in KS]

I missed your news about Bear. I'm so sorry, Jenn!