What happened to Bear yesterday

I didn't really want to put it on my memorial post, because it was not in the least a positive thing.

The thing is we don't really know what happened.  He was fine except the last couple of weeks he would occasionally skip a meal.  This was unusual for him, but not completely unheard of.  The night before he died he hadn't eaten, but Gib and I took him and Ginger out for a run and he was FINE.  There was no indication that anything was wrong.

Yesterday morning he had peed and pooped in his cage, which is also something he does occassionally, so no real reason to worry.  He was fine when I left for PT.  I got back and he had peed again and seemed a little glassy eyed, but I still honestly didn't know what was happening.  The kids and I were upstairs playing with Noah's new game when I asked Macie to check on Bear.  She came running back upstairs saying there was blood everywhere.  He was already agonal breathing, so I kind of knew this was it, but even after taking him to the vet I kept going back to make sure he wasn't still a little alive.

I sat with my dog while he hemorrhaged to death.  He had one lucid moment where he recognized me and then he was gone.  I was howling with grief in the garage.  All we can thing of is that he ate something sharp that perforated somewhere in his GI tract.  It was a horrible experience and the kids were all home and I just wasn't able to ask them to get back, I was in too much pain.

Our lives really never will be the same.

Comments

[Tiger Lamb Girl]

I'm so sorry you lost Bear.
{{{hugs}}}

[Pamela]

oh so sorry for all of you. I hope you find some peace in the knowledge that he was loved better than so many dogs. Not every pet is so lucky to be blessed with a loving family.

take care....

[the planet of janet]

oh honey, i'm sorry.

(((jenn)))

[WT]

That really is horrible. Life can suck sometimes.

[Equoni]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know what it is like to love a dog so much, and how much it hurts to lose them. I lost my baby 3 years ago, and the pain never really goes away. You will always carry a piece of Bear inside you. And you will feel him watching over you and your family in times to come (trust me, you will). I am so sorry for your loss. I know how much it hurts.

[Jenny, Bloggess]

Oh sweetie. I am so, so sorry. Damn, damn, damn.

If I was there I'd give you such a hug.

[islaygirl]

i am so sorry. xpxp

[islaygirl]

uh. whoops. xoxo. (maybe the p's are really BIG hugs.)

[jan]

I've had so many dogs through my life and losing them is a grief that never goes away. But each one leaves so many special memories that I can never imagine life without a dog in it. After a period of grief, I think it is important to invite another dog to share your life.