Seriously, I can handle quite a bit before I begin to fall apart and I have definitely hit my threshold.
1) The tumor in my spinal canal needs to come out before it grows too big and begins to entangle nerves.
2) I've already been sick so many times this year that I am out of FMLA and thus am not protected for the 4-6 weeks it will take to heal from the surgery
3) I emailed HR to see if there are other options for me to keep my job, and no one has emailed me back or talked to me about it. I see fired in my future
4) If the surgery isn't done in the next two weeks I will have to miss our yearly family reunion on the lake and Gib's grandma was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer and it could very well be her last family reunion. I can't miss that.
5) If it is done soon I will miss my son's soccer tournament in KC, where we also plan on spending time with Gib's grandma.
6) I have this freaking ridiculous skin condition called dermatographism where basically if anything touches me or I scratch or rub any part of my body it breaks out in hives and then gets really itchy. Sometimes I end up scratching SO much that every inch of my arms our legs are covered in hives. Three different antihistamines don't make it better.
7) It was foggy this morning and I watched a car slam into a flatbed truck. I started shaking and crying and was convinced I was going to be in a wreck before I ever even got here. Panic attacks on busy highways are not good.
8) The kids? Well they're acting their ages, but right now it's just too much for me to handle.
I really need a break. I have a feeling I will be leaving work early.
