Simply Not Simple

Simple... Not simple

Simple: Having three beautiful children and wanting to add a fourth.

Not simple:  Miscarrying #4 at ten weeks

Simple: Having a caring doctor who lets you know you are going to miscarry and lets you know what to expect

Not simple: Having a doctor who does not want to give you the news so she instead refuses to answer any of your questions and refuses to return calls.  A nurse then offers to take you to the doc's office and the doc ran off so she wouldn't have to speak with you.

Simple: Being in an advanced genetics class at the time and knowing that statistically you are "due" for a miscarriage

Not simple:  Not understanding that something like this can totally crush your heart, make you angry at the world and pregnant women in general, and realizing you can't always get what you want just by wanting it

Simple: Wanting comfort and support from family and friends

Not simple: Having a "friend" who said you had no business having a fourth child, that no one needs that many kids, and then calling and telling you SHE is pregnant and being upset when you aren't ecstatic about her news.

Simple: Finally becoming pregnant with child number four and watching him grow into a person that meshes SO well with my personality

Not simple: Poor precious child has had health issues since birth, and I live a constant fear that he will be taken from me.  This is not likely as long as we are vigilant, but it is possible.  It's hard.

There is definitely more, but I will save miscarriage number 2 for another day.

Simple- Not simple?

Simple- Walking down stairs

Not simple- Breaking leg in the middle of the night by completely missing the bottom step of said stairs

Simple- Having my mother-in-law drive me to the doctor first thing the next morning in excruciating pain

Not simple- Being told by the doctor that my leg was not broken and to keep it elevated for a couple days then going home and trying to walk on it, because after all it wasn't broken and everyone knows you should walk on a sprain after 48 hours

Simple- Returning to the doctor in a week because the pain hasn't gotten any better over time

Not simple- Finding out the tibia is indeed broken, but STILL not being put in a cast

Simple- Having a broken leg

Not simple- Breaking the fibula 2 weeks after the tibia break because the doctors did not put me in a cast and the strain of the weight on the tibia caused it to snap also

Simple- Going back to the doctor to have the second break looked at and maybe, just maybe having it casted

Not simple- Being told that the fibula is not broken and that he would have believed me if I had fallen off a wall and heard a crack but I was just walking and you CAN'T break your leg walking. He also kindly informed me that even though the pain was now more severe on the "unbroken" side I couldn't possibly have broken a second bone

Simple- Going in for the final x-ray and decree that I no longer need the boot (nope, I never did get a cast)

Gloriously fun- Asking the doctor how many bones had been broken and being sheepishly told "TWO" and watching him squirm when I told him that maybe he should have believed me